limit is going to be. i have a lot of conversation with god about that. she's everything. and if he took that away from me -- >> reporter: emotion is a constant. but mom hilda says small victories are starting to win out. >> this morning i couldn't find my glasses and i got upset. and she goes, mom, really? she says, you are going to get all upset for a pair of glasses? that gives me -- and of course i have tears in my eyes and she goes, mom, don't start crying. because i'm always hiding it. it's hard not to cry. school bus was on the side of the car. she goes, mom, i remember i was on one of those. and i says, yeah. i said, do you miss that? not really, she goes. you know. so i was just quiet, you know. she goes you're not crying, are you? i said, no. >> let's put it together. good. getting better at this.